Pointless

I don’t see why I cry out loud at times,
Maybe I am just trying to trick my mind,
To think,
Maybe I will change,
Okay,
No, not maybe,
I will change,
But still do the same things,
Pointless I know,
Do I want to be the same or grow?
Do I want to be known?
Or do the same old things I have done before,
Maybe I am crazy,
Or maybe I am just lazy,
Why do I say the things I say?
Maybe I want for things to change,
I think too much at times,
I need to do what I say,
And make use of time,
To change.