slow breathing
while speaking
over the phone
deep breathes
less stress
watch your tone
more days
to play
been in a zone
no more to say
word loss
caution
look out for the cone
mute
jixi fox 🦊
Category: Poetry
craving you
missing even a dose
is too much alone
i am craving you
so much more
each day away
a pain
i need a doctor
i am going insane
you by my side
it a bliss
every second without
you are missed
jixi fox 🦊
me and my plus one
invited
so i showed up
but you know what
i can’t go
unless my plus one can
that’s my person
we like to dance
i have done the math
if you invited one
then it’s really have two
so before you mess up the count
i only come
when there is a plus one
jixi fox 🦊
restless
eyes closed but wide open
fail to regenerate
life has hold
it hard to free one’s self
reaching out
like a hand out of water
while drowning
i can’t function
my capacity is capped
but i proceed
to find time
i could have never got back
jixi fox 🦊
deleting you, for me
longing for passion
and exclusivity
i did the work
and created unity
all i wanted was you
but all i received were clues
to a puzzle
i didn’t know i was building
i gave up my time
i committed my energy
i was present
you were my priority
but for me to live
you have to die
for me to smile
you have to cry
i am telling the truth
no need to lie
i am deleting you
from by my side
jixi fox 🦊
peeling back the layers
it was too much
hard to hold
too much weight
to carry my thoughts
forward without a pause
yet i chose to not stand still
jixi fox 🦊
you were wrong
sometimes you can’t believe
but it’s real
right in front of you
they tell you to compete
with everyone
and carry hate
but they were wrong
love wins
where the crown
queen and king
jixi fox 🦊
but if i had known
looking back i couldn’t see my reflection
just a fragments
of everyone’s historicals of me
they told me
if i lived like this
there were benefits
so i did
now wish i didn’t
because who’s life
did I live
jixi fox 🦊
the bitter feeling of fear
lately
and it always seems
like lately
uncovering truths
that were based in lies
disappoints me
crying alone
no one can see
even when i am finding myself
that therapy
sounds like
failure
fixing a failure
i have to be honest
but
fixing a failure
is respectable
it’s just hard to do
when everyone is watching you
it’s just hard
when you think
others are judging you
it’s just hard because
I can’t stop judging me
I need a release
of fear
jixi fox 🦊