unpacking passions
i thought i had a loaded gun
trying hard with my expressions
i held them in for far too long
second-guessing love and work
the world want me to choose
now i’m the source of safety
for others
who really needed a boost
who gonna help me
when I do get there
standing on the championship stage
who gonna tell me
i beleived in you
but they never called to check in
every word was a weapon
they head hunting for cash
my cutoff game been ill
super sickly in the past
but today
i feel i am on a broken path
increasingly proceeding
to reverse my ambitions
to older dates
navigating priorities
my sanity
was better had
how do i save me
no one has a helping hand
jixi fox 🦊
too much load
to carry
on backs
what’s the limit
to feed the needy
to honor the masses
didn’t want to be lead astray
when there is so much
so is the unpacking
jixi fox 🦊
she lied
i felt broken
didn’t know how to
approach and confront
i don’t think she knows
we started to talk
i am not sure where we left off
i went off
never came back
the hurt
the deceit
couldn’t be repaired
jixi fox 🦊
everything built
can be broken
a unspoken truth
but by who
that’s the major clue
it is you?
jixi fox 🦊
to break free
society vs reality
living life as a dream
i am just trying
to bring peace
where there is always war
jixi fox 🦊
i know they want me cooked
microwave
i could stay stubborn
i had to advance to another stage
i pressed play
looked back
everyone has paused
i knew right then and there
i was the boss
in control
jixi fox 🦊
i said bye in the past
and today still the same
you thought i forgot
the sentiments never changed
jixi fox 🦊
lately i been deleting
greeting discomfort at the door
showcasing the disconnect
and how it disrespect my code
somedays i want to be left alone
i mean without phone
in hand scanning
in some corner instagramming
while people are in famine
it saddens me
for how i want to do more
my core is checking ids
and go to jail cards
as my property
mind body and soul
wants more of me
deep connection
expressive ecstasy
so i must leave
whatever no longer serves well
so no ace
jixi fox 🦊