held beyond my means
stranded
i strained my pad
with my pain
every drop of blood
and tear drops
filled in my mood
i thought i exposed myself
i wore nude
moments expressed
are deeper than the skin
within is where i found the light
to let go
of what held me
turn off
dim them
as they go dark
jixi fox 🦊
About yesterday, wow. I recently reached a 1,400-post streak on my blog. I am not saying it’s a major highlight, but it’s definitely a milestone in itself. Where in the world did I see myself writing this consistently? My love for the art of poetry, stories, feelings, expression, and raw thoughts has brought me here.
To think I am making it’s my 19th year for creating on WordPress and feeling I have so much more to share. I haven’t even released a book; I haven’t released my deep stories or my novel, not to mention the poems written in secret.
I just want to take this time to appreciate life and the higher power for having me still creating and finding deep inspiration and motivation to do the work I am doing.
As an ode to this milestone, I produced a NEW audio production, titled “Taki“. Available on streaming currently, released on my milestone day, May 31, 2026.
I would appreciate it if you took a listen and shared. I dropped it on YouTube so everyone can enjoy; no streaming service needed. Thanks
jixi fox 🦊
unpacking passions
i thought i had a loaded gun
trying hard with my expressions
i held them in for far too long
second-guessing love and work
the world want me to choose
now i’m the source of safety
for others
who really needed a boost
who gonna help me
when I do get there
standing on the championship stage
who gonna tell me
i beleived in you
but they never called to check in
every word was a weapon
they head hunting for cash
my cutoff game been ill
super sickly in the past
but today
i feel i am on a broken path
increasingly proceeding
to reverse my ambitions
to older dates
navigating priorities
my sanity
was better had
how do i save me
no one has a helping hand
jixi fox 🦊
too much load
to carry
on backs
what’s the limit
to feed the needy
to honor the masses
didn’t want to be lead astray
when there is so much
so is the unpacking
jixi fox 🦊
she lied
i felt broken
didn’t know how to
approach and confront
i don’t think she knows
we started to talk
i am not sure where we left off
i went off
never came back
the hurt
the deceit
couldn’t be repaired
jixi fox 🦊
everything built
can be broken
a unspoken truth
but by who
that’s the major clue
it is you?
jixi fox 🦊
to break free
society vs reality
living life as a dream
i am just trying
to bring peace
where there is always war
jixi fox 🦊
i know they want me cooked
microwave
i could stay stubborn
i had to advance to another stage
i pressed play
looked back
everyone has paused
i knew right then and there
i was the boss
in control
jixi fox 🦊