People hide from themselves daily,
Believing they fooled the world,
Taking from people who have nothing,
Believing those people have the world,
To only find out,
We all have a battle we are fighting,
Just that some of it you can’t see,
Until you step in my shoes,
Trust me you don’t want to be me.
Music is a big influence in my life. I have quite a few songs and albums that have defined my life & moments in my life. Whether is my love life, my anxiety phase, when I felt I was emotionless, music really came in for the save. So when I hear certain songs, or thoughts of certain lyrics I am quick to put my Spotify subscription to use on my iPhone to jam to whatever song I want to at that given moment. I am a big fan of headphones, so I probably will do a review of a few of my favorites, as I absolutely own about 12 pairs of headphones. Trust I know, a bit obsessive right? But if you love music as much as I do, you would see why.
Anyways, today’s music story I want to share is more of my love of music as whole and the battle between The Backstreet Boys and Nsync. I am big fan of The Backstreet Boys, c’mon who does love the songs, “Everybody” “Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely” “Quit Playing Games With My Heart” “I Want It That Way” “As Long As You Love Me”. Well I think this was my first experience with enjoying a boy group/band out of the realm of “Boyz II Men” is which is amazing.
And then out nowhere comes Nsync in which I was super hating on, I will not lie. I was caught in the battle that you had to choose a team. But my music taste burst open, when Nsync released, “No Strings Attached”. This is probably one of favorite albums all times, I can probably say it’s in my top 25 favorite albums of all times. With amazing songs such as “Bye Bye Bye” “No Strings Attached” “Digital Get Down” “Just Got Paid” “Space Cowboy”.
I just love this album so much. The energy and music composition was just top tier. It’s crazy because this was an album I admitted to a girlfriend I loved and we enjoyed relating to group and the music. So it’s crazy every time I listen any of the songs, I can’t help but think of her. So I guess that’s something I have to live with. At first it was (tough) as a guy from Bronx, New York to say, hey I enjoy music from Nsync, when it came out at the time, but this album/music taught me, the meaning of good music is just good music. Good music is worth enjoying. And to add more flavor to it all, their music videos were amazing and sold the songs a million times over.
As the story was all about joy…then came the heart break, and the song “Gone” was just so sad and expressed me losing the one of the loves of my life, my girlfriend at the time. I am not going to lie, I think this song made me cry as well. There was so many emotions building up and it was just there. To this day it gives me goose bumps, it’s a really good song. It’s definitely a good break up / heart ache song to add to a playlist.
I hope you enjoyed my story…shares yours with me, I would love to read it.
Thanks for reading,
Jixi
meet me on instagram: @jixifox
For my music stories, go here #MusicStories
In life we need more wins. So I found a few wins and inspiration to share with you to keep you going, in the fight to find happiness…
Check them out below, in the form of signs
share the love @jixifox
thank you.
jixi.
i will follow you anywhere,
especially on the gram,
your beauty i adore,
so honestly i am a fan,
i like your mystique,
your aura,
hits me in phases,
your qualities are so true to me,
i think you are amazing,
i glaze at your page,
i get excited so i tweet,
i just like your style,
i think you are sweet,
we will probably won’t meet,
and this i understand,
you are my women crush wednesday,
but i would still shoot my shot,
maybe one day i would be your man.
“love poems – a love story is a series of love poems written to capture the art of love and all the beauty and chaos that comes with it. follow the story…”
read more: click – love poems / love poem
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Thanks for reading,
jixi fox
jixifox.me
All Rights Reserved. Copyrighted 2020. Jixi Fox
Every night I rest my head
I think of you
I thinking about all of our good memories.
Photo by Kelly Sikkema
Confessions To My Ex-Friend
“a series of thoughts and words i wanted to express. times were never always bad not their best. these are the words i wanted to say. or it may just be too late. these emotions are coming from a real place.”
Ep.1 | Ep.2 | Ep.3 | Ep.4 | Ep.5 | Ep.6 | Ep.7 | Ep.8
Love is hard
But I love you
I need you in my life.
Photo by Kelly Sikkema
Confessions To My Ex-Friend
“a series of thoughts and words i wanted to express. times were never always bad not their best. these are the words i wanted to say. or it may just be too late. these emotions are coming from a real place.”
Ep.1 | Ep.2 | Ep.3 | Ep.4 | Ep.5 | Ep.6 | Ep.7 | Ep.8
it feels so good,
but tastes better,
these are,
my guilty pleasures,
i like it in dark,
i lick my lips,
my thirst is never quenched,
i want it.
i hide my desires,
i so no one knows,
i am behind the door,
but it’s not closed,
you won’t ever know,
unless i reveal my secrets,
i want it so bad,
i need it.
if i can have it everyday,
i would,
i would lose my mind in it,
if i could,
i am on high,
for the things i am craving,
i could be good,
but i want to be bad,
i just love misbehaving.
Photo by Sharon McCutcheon
“love poems – a love story is a series of love poems written to capture the art of love and all the beauty and chaos that comes with it. follow the story…”
read more: click – love poems / love poem
meet me on instagram: @jixifox
Thanks for reading,
jixi fox
jixifox.me
All Rights Reserved. Copyrighted 2020. Jixi Fox
as i pen these words,
on paper,
for you,
i vow to always,
love you.
if you could see,
the crumbled attempts,
of my perfect written words,
you may think my garbage pail,
is an ice cream cone.
sprinkles of life,
and circles,
and of course hearts,
that would have you melt,
dripping with emotions,
over and over again.
i may have written over 90 letters,
trying to find the right words,
to make you know,
how much,
i love you.
it may seem so far left,
but i know its right,
if you can open your eyes,
you will see,
how much,
i love you.
until the right words,
flow from my insides,
to my out,
i will not stop,
until i can say,
in the right way,
how much,
i love you.
jixi fox
meet me on instagram: @jixifox
read more: click – love poems / love poem
Photo by Tiko Giorgadze
Thanks for reading!
“love poems – a love story is a series of love poems written to capture the art of love and all the beauty and chaos that comes with it. follow the story…”
ep.1 | ep.2
i heart you,
took so long,
found you,
to never let go,
been so long,
missing love,
with you,
forever,
going strong.
jixi fox
meet me on instagram: @jixifox