About that time,
I told myself,
I will not be here again,
Shall I confront or avoid?
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Jixi
Deep Thoughts And Reflections
Tag: poetry
Scared To Go Outside
The noise,
The mess,
The stress,
It’s not it’s best,
When outside,
In my bed,
Under the sheets,
I hide,
I climb the walls,
Depressed,
Compressed,
To my loneliness,
Outside is a void,
I use to dance and sing in,
The wind is blowing,
In a deep fog,
I am sinking in,
I can’t exit today,
For what is tomorrow,
I am stuck inside,
I wish I had a lifeline,
I can borrow,
Nothing is solid,
Liquid are most of my thoughts,
I shower away my guilts,
Quickly as I dry,
They reappear.
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Jixi
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How Many Days Has It Been?
I forgot,
So I must ask,
How many days has it been,
Since I was isolated from my pen,
Haven’t written a word,
But lost in my thoughts I have been,
Quarantined, isolated,
I have inhaled it all,
But have yet to exhale anything,
I am not breathing right,
My air is not filled with answers,
But despair,
For more fears start sinking in,
Masks on,
I am afraid for the wind,
For where is the care,
When are practicing Social distancing,
Out world is changing,
In time things will be relieved,
How far can I go in my industry,
If there is no relief,
No protection,
Little tools to use,
But there are suggestions,
Eyes glued to the news,
Or Youtube,
Or IG doing Tik Tok dances,
Trying to find peace in a message…
How many days have it been?
Since…
To Be Continued…
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Photo by Riccardo Pelati
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Jixi
Quotes & Captions
Quotes & Captions
People hide from themselves daily,
Believing they fooled the world,
Taking from people who have nothing,
Believing those people have the world,
To only find out,
We all have a battle we are fighting,
Just that some of it you can’t see,
Until you step in my shoes,
Trust me you don’t want to be me.
Music That Brings Back Memories
Music is a big influence in my life. I have quite a few songs and albums that have defined my life & moments in my life. Whether is my love life, my anxiety phase, when I felt I was emotionless, music really came in for the save. So when I hear certain songs, or thoughts of certain lyrics I am quick to put my Spotify subscription to use on my iPhone to jam to whatever song I want to at that given moment. I am a big fan of headphones, so I probably will do a review of a few of my favorites, as I absolutely own about 12 pairs of headphones. Trust I know, a bit obsessive right? But if you love music as much as I do, you would see why.
Anyways, today’s music story I want to share is more of my love of music as whole and the battle between The Backstreet Boys and Nsync. I am big fan of The Backstreet Boys, c’mon who does love the songs, “Everybody” “Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely” “Quit Playing Games With My Heart” “I Want It That Way” “As Long As You Love Me”. Well I think this was my first experience with enjoying a boy group/band out of the realm of “Boyz II Men” is which is amazing.
And then out nowhere comes Nsync in which I was super hating on, I will not lie. I was caught in the battle that you had to choose a team. But my music taste burst open, when Nsync released, “No Strings Attached”. This is probably one of favorite albums all times, I can probably say it’s in my top 25 favorite albums of all times. With amazing songs such as “Bye Bye Bye” “No Strings Attached” “Digital Get Down” “Just Got Paid” “Space Cowboy”.
I just love this album so much. The energy and music composition was just top tier. It’s crazy because this was an album I admitted to a girlfriend I loved and we enjoyed relating to group and the music. So it’s crazy every time I listen any of the songs, I can’t help but think of her. So I guess that’s something I have to live with. At first it was (tough) as a guy from Bronx, New York to say, hey I enjoy music from Nsync, when it came out at the time, but this album/music taught me, the meaning of good music is just good music. Good music is worth enjoying. And to add more flavor to it all, their music videos were amazing and sold the songs a million times over.
HEART BREAK
As the story was all about joy…then came the heart break, and the song “Gone” was just so sad and expressed me losing the one of the loves of my life, my girlfriend at the time. I am not going to lie, I think this song made me cry as well. There was so many emotions building up and it was just there. To this day it gives me goose bumps, it’s a really good song. It’s definitely a good break up / heart ache song to add to a playlist.
I hope you enjoyed my story…shares yours with me, I would love to read it.
Thanks for reading,
Jixi
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For my music stories, go here #MusicStories
Inspiration
In life we need more wins. So I found a few wins and inspiration to share with you to keep you going, in the fight to find happiness…
Check them out below, in the form of signs
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thank you.
jixi.
love poems – wcw
i will follow you anywhere,
especially on the gram,
your beauty i adore,
so honestly i am a fan,
i like your mystique,
your aura,
hits me in phases,
your qualities are so true to me,
i think you are amazing,
i glaze at your page,
i get excited so i tweet,
i just like your style,
i think you are sweet,
we will probably won’t meet,
and this i understand,
you are my women crush wednesday,
but i would still shoot my shot,
maybe one day i would be your man.
“love poems – a love story is a series of love poems written to capture the art of love and all the beauty and chaos that comes with it. follow the story…”
read more: click – love poems / love poem
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jixi fox
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Fake Traffic – Leaked and Exposed
Leaked and Exposed
Likes pouring in,
Followers are bumping,
My status is popping,
My heart is pumping,
This ain’t adding up,
Zero to a million,
But you ain’t bad enough,
5,000 views,
But no comments?
What you are selling,
I am not copping,
Had to stop and look,
These views are fake,
This is the route,
You choose to take?
Making up a story,
You crying wolf,
Except you are the piggy,
And your straw house,
I am blowing through.
Leaked & Exposed
“in a world that’s similar to the matrix, are you woke? are you aware of what’s happening? can you detect a lie, can you see through the glass? well, leaked and exposed is your juicy (sip of tea) of guilty pleasure to see things uncovered for what they are, and the truth comes through…”
Ep.1 | Ep.2 | Ep.3 | Ep.4 | Ep.5 | Ep.6 | Ep.7 | Ep.8
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jixi fox
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All Rights Reserved. Copyrighted 2020. Jixi Fox
#irl – wearing a face
IRL
Most women who are in love with make-up, wears a face.
#irl
“in real life things are different.”
“online you can be whoever you want. you can be fake or real”
social media, depression, fear, personality, reality, hardship, fake, antisocial, anxiety
Ep.1 | Ep.2 | Ep.3 | Ep.4 | Ep.5 | Ep.6 | Ep.7 | Ep.8
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jixi fox