Pounding and pounding and pounding, Has been my head, Lately I can’t seem to get out of bed, Laying for hours, Phone in hand scrolling, Uncomfortable, Knowing I want to stop, But I keep going, Minutes to hours, Then shifts like I am working, Attention span shot, While my duties in life are lurking, Found a new rabbit hole, In the sunken place, But I am not falling, I am digging in, I seem to can’t help myself, I can fight against the crowd, Most people want me to be fitting in, Be like them, Attention is luxury, Desires and mental health, Time to go shopping, Attention span on X, In minutes I am fiending, I might stop, But I don’t want to, I might as well continue leaning in.
I am not going to lie, I am mad as hell. I am been trying to break up for so long with with my phone service provider. Like they not trying to pick my calls, they know I am calling from my new boo. I mean new boo, is not so much better than old boo, forget that, it was never my boo. I am just mad, pick up my calls. I feel like to sue you. Like I am that mad. I am here late at night thinking and trying to break up. I am doing all the required steps, I done verified my old number and password, and everything. Like what’s the deal. You done took my autopay money out my bank account, you bad bad service (lol, I am totally going all in on this rant, so laughable, let me continue.)
Remember it was me paying my bills on time. It was me, when I was telling everyone you had good service and stuff. It was me, calling family through WhatsApp on Wifi and traveling to islands knowing you got me on roaming charges. It was me.
Also it was me who you started robbing with high a$$ fees, taking my autopay money and took over 6 months to get back. It was me, but little did you know I am a real one, oh yea, you didn’t know that huh, I know how to call my credit card company and my bank, I know the secret codes. I am pro at this. While you still aint picking up my calls, I am so mad, I going to win in the end, trust me. Just one phone call and my evidence to the fraud department and it’s all, NEW CARD, WHO DIS? NEW ACCOUNT, WHO DIS?
I am going to be so brand new with my new phone service boo, which I know will also hike up their prices in about 1-2 years and we are going fight and break up. But for now, PICK UP THE PHONE. I hate you. (okay hate is an ugly word, ummmm I will be kind, I truly unlike you deeply.). I can’t wait to move on, heal, get therapy and do better things with my new boo (phone service plan).
If you can relate, drop me a comment! 🙂
*This post is a bit unfiltered and unedited, I really wanted to see what a 4 minutes free write will feel like expressing an emotion. I feel proud of myself.
Never been a fan of rules, I always been a fan of cool, Doing cool sh*t, Living life as bunch of what if’s, Making people question my approach, Like what is this, Some may get pissed, But how do they grow though, How do you evolve, Following the same kind of flow, Never second guessing, The impression is all weird, Like take the left path, As the right one was so clear, Moving with no fear, Not worried if you will be judged, Judgy people, Are the type of people, Who probably need some hugs, To cover their tush, As the sit and box, They going to just have to watch me, Color outside the box.
Some days I feel I want to unsubscribe from life, Like opting out of the bs that happening in mine, Feeling like I am walking in minefields, Knowing another episode is about to explode, Can’t crack the logic to the frantic, I haven’t developed the code, Can’t be watching people on social, Faking life seem so hopeful, It’s worth noting, Or I could just be hoping, I need to change to something more potent, Something with a kick, I mean, I see the goal, But not knowing how winning feels, Evergreen, yea ever green, Haven’t fully ripen, Straight to rotten it just seems, Meanings to things are not what they pan out to be, Believing the words of others, Have you ever watched a politician speak? Leak sources, Tie up our forces, Buying courses, Email inbox cluttered with advertising, Every arising just leads, To another minefield, It can’t just be me, So I escaping on a boat, To stay afloat, With just hopes, Of how being at peace feels, Opting to unsubscribe, Shouldn’t feel so mean, Feels let a bit of breakup, We finally wake up, Playing for another team.
Do you realize nothing is impossible, It only matter on the space for which, That reality is created? For dreams do exist, So is our creativity, The sky is the limit, Should be in every little kids lunch kit, We are gifted with imagination, To unlock doors, Believe in that anything is possible. Inside we have the key.
I have been thinking, That I want to me linking, With you, Pass your curfew, Let’s find something to do, We can talk on the phone for hours, Or we can do something casual, A little bit of touch and tease, A bit of screaming baby please, All while having deep connection, So lure in, Singing melodies, Creating unique fantasies, Make more feelings of ecstasy, So we can fall a sleep, Under the moon, Under a tree, On a blanket of roses, Fitting for you and me.
It’s a fresh new month to explore. August is bound to open doors. I am feeling delight in welcoming in August. I have a good deal of plans for this month, and wanted to get off right something I have been failing at. I wonder how many people have great plans for content creation and life just keep getting in the way? Like where is the chill out button. Just let me live and be great. 🙂
Life is a beautiful adventure, full of moments that uplift us and challenges that make us stronger. It is a journey filled with both smiles and frowns, reminding us to cherish the highs and learn from the lows.
The Challenge
We have 5 months before the end of the year. So I am going to try. If you don’t try, have will you know or reach success? You will only know failure, for not trying.
Every single day presents us with a golden opportunity to create an extraordinary impact. The burning question that ignites the fire within is: are you resolutely committed to seizing it with unwavering determination and unwavering zeal, regardless of any obstacles that may arise in your path? Embrace the challenge and let your passion skyrocket, for the world awaits the powerful force that lies within you!
Alrighty then! Here’s the deal, my friend. The prompt of the month is all about getting off your tush and finally doing that one teeny-tiny thing you’ve been putting off for ages. Yeah, you know the one! It’s time to take action and make it happen! So, what are you waiting for? Get cracking and show that task who’s boss! You got this, champ! 🚀😄 GO!
Question
What are thing you look forward to doing in August? Or What’s a memory of yours that’s associated with August?
The days will grow tall, but don’t you fall, don’t give in, do your thing. Just when you think or feel no one is paying attention, a miracle happens. Stay humble.
